Friday, December 12, 2008
When my intuition speaks… it never lies
I have lived to endure seasons of emotions;
A season of joy and a season of weep;
My heart acquaints with countless souls;
A soul deepens with love beyond the extreme depth of the sea;
A soul fumes with hatred and a soul burns with jealousy.
The moment I set my eyes upon you
I witness a soul full of zest and honesty;
For zest is a strength that dwells within your soul;
For the honesty in you that sparkles and never grows old;
The spirit in you I surely see through
My intuition speaks…I have faith in you.
In you I see a pure heart;
Like a tinted glass
It reflects in the daylight
But shines from within during the night;
With me your heart has always been true
My intuition speaks …I always trust you.
Trust is the only thing that holds us together;
Like an iron chain, it ties us forever;
An unspoken vow to break it never;
The pain in me you can never feel
To dishonor the trust you bestows upon me;
Shielding it I am unable to do;
My intuition speaks…I have failed you;
When I am not with you
Remember me as for eternity I will remember you;
When you walk on the beach
Remember each pebble is a reason I have faith in you;
When you look up to the bright sky in the middle of the night
Remember each star is a reason I trust you;
I don’t have to be by your side
To feel your joy, to hear your cries;
I just have to listen to the intuition in my heart
For when my intuition speaks… it never lies.
Sunday, December 7, 2008
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
put him in the normal stream. my son tu kena assess by the PPD officers pasal I want them to see how he is - he does not qualify to be in the special class pasal borderline case. too normal to be in special class but not normal enough to be in the normal stream. he will not improve in the special class. let him try that first. he can still be transferred to special class later kalau you risau sangat but it is not reversible once you place him in the special class. you kan cikgu jugak - why worry too much. have faith in him.
not that i dont have faith in him..i takut sgt die kena buli and bdk2 ejek die.. i am sooo afraid he cannot defend himself...and in the end, die akan depress..
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Danial's most recent pic..siap bole posing lagi and now mmg dah tak de problem with eye contact...
3 months after kindergarten
Danial and me did this as a practice based on his occupational therapy's session. This exercise was meant to increase Danial's attention span and reduce his sensitivity towards touch. You see, most autistic kids are very sensitive either to loud sound or rough surface or sticky surface...At this time, Danial was still not comfortable with the glue all sticky and messy on his fingers.
The artworks below were meant to aim for the same purpose...the texture of water colors...the rough skin of the lady's finger (bendi).
6 months after kindergarten
Notice that by now, after six months of kindergarten, Danial's attention span increased. He can now color the pictures within the boundary and could hold his pencil color properly.
DANIAL TODAY ~ TWO YEARS AFTER KINDERGARTEN!
Danial drew both pictures all by himself! Notice the happy face on the sun...He could label all the items he drew. Just look at the track ...the tunnel...the big rock...the trees, different kind of trees..there are palm trees...coconut trees...and the small sun smiling on the top right hand corner....His pictures are so detail like there are stories behind it...
Ahmad Danial is an active boy. During the first appointment, he showed poor global skills which include preverbal skills, receptive skills, expressive skills and play skills. After intensive training is given (specific supplement prescribed by pediatrician, weekly speech therapy and entering Montessori kindergarten and other alternative therapy) he improves gradually. He plays more appropriately and in a variety way. He has more spontaneous verbalize expression.
b) receptive skills
c)the expressive skill
Saturday, November 15, 2008
3. Completely recovered from obsession on lining up toys, books and tapes
4. Engage in spontaneous play~ play hide and seek appropriately
5. Bring to us toys for our attention
6. Climb up our bed for our attention
7. Show separation anxiety when we left the house ~ know that when ibu put on tudung means 'going out'
8. No more head banging or biting
9. Show less sensitivity to loud sound
10. More receptive towards huggings and body contacts
Friday, November 14, 2008
1. not respond when you call his or her name or seem generally unresponsive?
2. not use his or her index finger to point to objects to indicate what he or she wants or to show you something?
3. have intermittent or no eye contact?
4. still not speaking?
5. not speak anymore?
6. demonstrate odd or idiosyncratic speech or language- such as endlessly repeating nursery rhymes, echoing, repeating words or phrases or making unusual sounds?
7. demonstrate odd or idiosyncratic behavior - such as hand flapping, finger flicking or constant spinning
8. experience emotional volatility and tantrums that are out of control?
9. demonstrate a regression in overall behavior - including communication, play and social skills?
10. have poor motor coordination when it comes to physical activities such as running or climbing?
11. fixate on objects such as ceiling fans or bright lights or parts of objects such as the wheels of a toy car?
12. seem highly distracted or spaced out?
13. show an inappropriate attachment to objects or frequently put objects into his or her mouth?
14. engage in obsessive, repetitive behaviors such as opening and closing doors, turning light switches on and off or lining up cars?
15. display ritualistic behaviors such as lining up books on the floor in a specific order at specific times?
16. engage in little or no spontaneous pretend play?
17. constantly play by him or himself, showing no interest in peers?
18. never bring or show you toys?
19. show no separation anxiety when you leave?
20. resist change and insist on sticking to specific routines or rituals?
21. engage in self-injurious behavior such as head banging or hand biting?
22. show no apparent fear of danger or pain?
23. not like to be hugged, cuddled or touched?
24. have unanimated facial expressions and or monotone voice?
25. demonstrate extreme over or underactivity?
26. display a lack of sensitivity or oversensitivity to sound, touch or visual stimuli (such as loud noises, rough fabrics..)
27. have unusual sleep patterns(such as trouble falling asleep or not sleeping through the night)?
28. eat only limited, specific foods?
Those nos highlighted were what Danial had when first observed by the doc and therapist when he was first diagnosed as having mild austism with ADHD (attention deficit and hyperactivity disorder). He was 2 years and 4 months old then.
Thursday, October 16, 2008
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Kecut lak daun kelongsong ketupat ni..Tu la..beli kelongsong ketupat lambat sangat, tinggal le yang kecut kecut sikit. Kecut pon kecut le..lagi kan tak de ketupat, cam tak raya lak kang. The time showed 5.30am in the morning. I just finished my sahur. Everyone else climbed up on their beds...resumed their sleep. Sitting bersila on the kitchen floor, in the early break of the daylight, patiently i filled the kelongsong ketupat with prewashed beras...alone. At ths time, for many years,without fail, reminded me that the moment has come....in a few hours...for the next 3 days of syawal...i will be transformed...jadi la daku cinderella jadian...masak,masak, masakkkk...eeemmm....ain't different from anyone else i guess...
These are my kids! These people can never stay still even for a second...terbanyak makan vitamins i rasa..active betul. This year we decided to have the same color tone for our baju pagi raya...not identical though. Danial's baju melayu was ready made and i got it from PKNS complex but my girls' baju kurung moden as seen in these photo were my own design...
The baju kurung i wore was actually bought 2 days before raya and so did the accessories that came with it...a true definition of last minute raya shopping! Owh...with me in this photo was my darling daughter Najwa Asyikin. Ooo girl, u look so girlish this year. Najwa is very picky with her choice of baju raya or anything comes attached with it. That's why u will see no accessory of any sort on her body...hhahahaha. However, this year, she agreed to let her line of raya attires in the trust of non other than who else...me! (sebab i warned her..."Najwa, kalau awak cerewet sgt this year, smue baju awak tak berkenan...awak raya tahun ni pakai je baju skola ea??")
Nuwairah Aimi...our third girl...hmm..ni Aisyah in the making. Memang kuat bergamba and berposing. Sikit2 gamba die...tgk camera balik..eh, smue ade muka kak ira...hahhahaha.
Haaa...ni hero sape la ni...if not our only son..Danial, dengan jambul yang digelkan and di hairspraykan oleh non other than our in-house stylist~ Aisyah. Teruk la awak kakak, sian gambut adek awak keje kan...Hish...Danial, can u please stay still kejap..bia ibu amek gamba awak comel sikit..Danial looked so hensem in this baju melayu which happened to be secolor dengan abahnye. Aisyah was the one yang pilihkan color baju melayu tu and also chose the sampin for her brother. Pagi pagi raya, lepas mandi and bersiap, Aisyah was the one who siapkan her brother, siap dengan hair style skali and warned everyone not to put Danial on songkok or kupiah or ape2 yang akan rosakkan rambut adik die..hhahahahah! "Jangan pakaikan die songkokkkk...nnti jambul die rosakkkkk...".
Edit mengedit gamba macam ni rupa mmg la keje Aisyah. You guys will notice, unlike Najwa, Aisyah has all the accessories from the hair to the chain around the neck to the earings that could not be seen in the photo to macam macam la yang dia rasa boleh diletak kat her body. But i can't blame her though, look at the mom la...hahahahh. This is something me and Aisyah has in common. Now that we both can share shoes, Aisyah did not bother to shop for her raya shoes this year since she can just put on any of my pairs whichever she think that would suit her dress.
Hari Raya wishes from madam author of this blog...
This pic was taken on the third day of syawal at one of my husband's aunties house. This year, we both are 40 (baru empat puluh k..). We both are very happy to celebrate syawal this year with those we love and care unconditionally...our family members;our mothers,brothers and sisters, uncles and aunts, cousins and not forgetting anak-anak angkat yang jauh di perantauan.. NorJannah Syaqireen, Rizwanie Irmaa and Mohd Zaim Zuhuri who are all now studying in the US. Tidak dilupakan juga, this year is going to be an exciting year for us because one of the dearest couples in our family; Haziqah Zuhuri and Haniff will tie the knot on the 18th October 2008! For Haziqah and Haniff...kami berdua mendoakan kebahagiaan ke akhir hayat and remember that marriage is not all about two people, its all about family...Love not only each other but also each other's family. We are very grateful that Allah s.w.t bless upon us with beautiful and wonderful children; Nabilah Aisyah, Najwa Asyikin, Nuwairah Aimi and Ahmad Danial, whom without them...diibaratkan tiadalah makna hidup kami. Kami berdoa agar Allah s.w.t sentiasa memberkati keluarga kami ini, dimurahkan rezeki dan dikukuhkan kasih & sayang di antara kami....kasih yang sejati..kasih yang abadi...
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL. MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN DARI KAMI BERDUA...
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Thy shall not step foot in the 'royal circle'....
I took this pic from her old album. These people were her aunties and uncles who were cousins matched to marry. I am not sure if one of the couples were her parents..
Losing her mother at that tender age of four consequently made pak long Omar and her favourite cousin, a.k.a. Cik Bocha,her only confidentes through her growing up years. When she got married and has her own family, now there were her husband and her three sons. These people seems to me like her 'royal circle'. She didn't have the maternal relationship with anyone which made her not so generous in showing affections to others outside this 'royal circle'. She trusted these people in the 'royal circle' so unwaveringly like she built a castle wall around them; not allowing anyone to enter;always coutious or skeptical or paranoid if others would have a control or influence on these people. The saddest thing was that of all those outsiders she was trying hard to protect her 'royal circle' from, the most 'dangerous' people in her eyes were us...her sons' wives. No one could ever imagine what i had to go through to infiltrate this circle as i was the first outsider who invaded her territory ~ i married the eldest son.
My mom-in-law and my eldest aisyah...aisyah is like a miniature of her grandmom kan?
Look at these two pictures: above was my mom in law (in specs) in her younger days...below is aisyah two years ago...serupa kan?...hai aisyah...rupa awak dalam gamba ni cam 'cikgu rokiah' .... hahahah...